If you have access to internet (you probably do, since you are reading this), then you are daily exposed to pictures and movies of strong, perfect people performing impressing workouts, yoga sessions or just taking pictures of themselves in wonderful nature while walking or biking outdoors.
So, you sit there, watching and wishing – and maybe this doesn’t motivate you at all. Maybe you just get sad, frustrated or envious.
Some of us have been able to do those things earlier, but no longer. For me, it has been several years of clinging to the hope that my body will be able to perform better. For me, physical exercise was the same as improvement. The harder I trained, the more improvements I saw.
So the transition to admit that there will (probably) not be any improvements, that I will have to exercise just to maintain what I have – or slow down the decay – well, it has been hard. And as you see, I just can’t stop writing “probably”, because I am still not ready to let all hope slip away.
But I also have to adjust to the reality today:
My body is not cooperating. I stumble, I drag my feet along, my muscles are stiff and weak at the same time. I need to exercise, and I need to do it even though it feels like it doesn’t give me anything. Use it or lose it!
So my strategies are:
- Admit that my level now is way below what it was
- Be happy for starting, instead of getting angry for not having started earlier
- Stop comparing myself to what I was able to do, and to all the perfect athletes out there
There is a little sad thing about this, the comparing part. I love watching So You Think You Can Dance. I have never danced, but I love imagine, and I used to say “Wow, what if I could dance like her. So effortless!”
Now, I am watching people walk on the pavement and think “Wow, what if I could walk like her. So effortless!”
It is a bit sad 🙁